unlovedThey look at my like im a plague
they look at me like im a freak
maybe their right
friends arent made for me
im a annoying little freak
im a little evil geek
i try to be quiet
and not let people know im there
i walk through the halls alone as they are unaware
was my day fine today?
no i lied
i always lie you dont need that problem
maybe it would be better if i died
yes i lied to you again
i will crawl into a dark den
and die alone with out a friend
i feel like a plague
thats how they look at me
i feel unloved by most of the world
except one person
was this how its meant to be
then i will be alone always
it bothers me in a way
but that feeling will never stay
i dont care what they think
ok maybe a little but only one link
they look at me like im a plague
they dont give me a chance to prove them right
to prove them wrong
only one person cares about me
and that i think will always be
its the same no matter where i go
only one person or two or so.
what is the feelingwhats this feeling that eats me up?
whats the pull that nags my heart?
tell me please because i do not know
is it a friend or is it a foe?
this feeling is dark...depressing and low
but yet its happy in a way i dont know
i can not describe it...this feeling inside
its shadowy and dark and has tons of time
it never leaves it just stays inside
i thought it was gone..but it never died
it lays inside waiting to strike
it has always and always will
it has once more lied
it will be there till
the end of days.
it is a demon waiting all still and patient
waiting for the final bill
a soul to take
a heart to stake
what is this feeling i get when i wake?
it is not love..it is not hate?
why does it keep me up so long and late?
cut it out..i do not want it.
its like depression but its always been there
its not as bad its like a peer
telling you what to do
screaming at you when you dont do it
it throws a fit and has lots of wit
its so much like a dark endless pit
what is this feeling i do n
laying dead on the groundfed and watered every day
but here i can not forever stay
a kiss of death must touch my lips
my soul and life i must eternally pay
but i must say before i go
my death will be painful and slow
or harmless and quick but no one knows
a dark shadow will walk my grave
what else must i just say?
a kiss of death and i will die
on the cold ground i must lye
so this is a final goodbye
at long last death has called and i must die
a sharp impact and my heart may stop
a prolonged drop and a spike i may lie atop
we are all dying inside. but we will not go untill our time
a final sun ray
one last day
for here i can not forever stay
and my final goodbyes i must say
its fine...its okay
here dead on the ground i may lay.
my soul and life i must pay
sorrysSorries dont cut it
I cant explain why
Im such a idiot
that was the last goodbye
i feel like ripping my heart apart
i feel as if i let emotions run me down
that i may die
No matter how much i mean it
sorry just wont work
i'd rip my heart out and give it back to you
I would crawl back to a dark hole
that was the last goodbye
im a complete idiot.
and i always wonder why.
Id stitch my lips shut for you
but nothing will ever do.
i cant change who i am, trust me i have tried
but the final goodbye, i think is when i died
i trust you to tell me the truth
i trust that you never lied
There is nothing i can do
i have already tried
what do you wnat me to do?
i wish for once i could just be you.
no thats not a lie
id kneel and say im sorry
one million times
but what good would that do now
i think ive already died
this would justhappen again
because of who i am
tell me what to do
i will leave it up to you
i would askfor forgivness but what would be the point
its not a simple as just a fight
broken webs, tears of joytears of joy ran down her face..
she knew then it wasnt all a waste.
she had wondered for about three days.
when he would return...he has his ways...
he return. tears of joy..
she wondered if he was just a boy
she was happy beyond belief
he returned...what a relief
she hadnt slept in about three days..
she didnt apreiciate the suns golden rays
telling her another day had gone by without any news..
tears of joy ran down her face..
glowing on her face like black glistening lace
her hands upon the keyboard at a steady race
wanting to know if it was actually him at last
the web resealed, broken in the past.
she didnt think he would ever return
it had hurt her like a blistering burn..
the return like a cold relieve,
she could speak but gasped in relieve
he had returned..her heart sewn up atlast
the broken web..a thing of the past
maybe she can sleep once again
but he returned and was there then.
the broken web...a saddening state..deep thoughts in the mind..
all now thinks of the
no returnhe is gone
is it to late?
will he return
i'll just have to wait
one hundred tears i shed right now
my heart beats more then a steady rate
at least i know now it is me he didnt hate
will he ever return from the black gate?
he understood me even when everybody else showed me derate
is he gone?
is it to late?
at least i know now i was not the bait.
my heart is now torn in two
who knows if he will return
will i have the patience to sit and wait?
he is gone...is it to late
i am deadIF you steal my head i will not die
drown me and i will breath water
throw me off a cliff and i will fly
slit my wrists and i will not bleed
hang me and my neck will not break
burn me and the flames will not burn me
pull off a limb and it will grow back
and after all this i will not wonder why
all you will do is lie
say hello and i will say goodbye
i thrive in the nightime sky
the darkness welcomes me as a old friend
my life was infact upsettingly the end
there was a slight bend
in the road im afraid.
i wasnt suppose to die that way.
how was i suppose to die anyways?
i do not remember its been so long
since i took my last breathe
that indeed was a long way away
it seems like it happened only yesterday
for now this is all i can say
be youi dont petend to be who im not
if you dont like who i am then watch me walk away
i am who i am
and thats all im going to say
if you look in the mirror and dont like what you see, no you will not find out what its like to be me
only i know what its like to be me
im not always happy with myself and i fake some smiles
but i dont be who im not
if you dont like it feel free to leave
i dont petend to be her and i dont petend to be him
i am just me
you will never find out first hand what i see
and that is how its going to be
if you dont like who you are, then dont look in the mirror
dont look at the face that glares back at you
we've all made mistakes
but you have to live with the past
be who you are, express your self cause life moves to fast
your depression will not last
neither will what you see in the mirror
all i know is that its weird to be me
look now see the image is past
dont look in the mirror and say that you will be different
your attitude will change. DONT, be who you are