what is the feeling

whats this feeling that eats me up?
whats the pull that nags my heart?
tell me please because i do not know
is it a friend or is it a foe?
this feeling is dark...depressing and low
but yet its happy in a way i dont know
i can not describe it...this feeling inside
its shadowy and dark and has tons of time
it never leaves it just stays inside
i thought it was gone..but it never died
it lays inside waiting to strike
it has always and always will
it has once more lied
be still!
it will be there till
the end of days.
it is a demon waiting all still and patient
waiting for the final bill
a soul to take
a heart to stake
what is this feeling i get when i wake?
it is not love..it is not hate?
why does it keep me up so long and late?
cut it out..i do not want it.
its like depression but its always been there
its not as bad its like a peer
telling you what to do
screaming at you when you dont do it
it throws a fit and has lots of wit
its so much like a dark endless pit
what is this feeling i do not know?
is it a friend or it it a foe?
it is not love it is not hate
but it just lays there and it will patently wait
what the hell is this feeling and why wont it leave?!
emotions it always likes to weave
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